Feather Bluff

Here's my sweetie on our last camping trip. We went on a long hike, set up came and then laid in the sun. We both love to sun bathe. Now he's in the arctic up above Norway. Here's a note I just received:


Yea! We didn't get up at 4 AM, 'cuz of ice that slowed us to 3 knots even with both engines running (costly on fuel). So, we are going into Diskobutka (Duck Bay) where the Kittiwake colony is in this cool box canyon. We have to time the tides right to get there, as it's very shallow for a long ways in.

So I've been giving a lot of thought to long distant relationship, not that we're having one, because he's here a good deal of the time. But loving someone and then having them gone brings up old issues. Abandonment for sure. I've been getting a lot done, working on my books, cleaning my closets, really letting go of a lot of stuff--old stuff from my past. Which is good.

Sometimes we get a new chance to do things again in a different way. I've been wanting to be loved completely. To be adored. I've chosen men in the past who don't want to be with me, not really. Should have had my head examined, actually did have my head examined, but still I went for the ones who'd go away. And this man, he's gone now, but coming back. Thus I get to change my inner scenario.

As far as outer scenarios go. We're having a heat wave here--there, the last four days it has snowed. Oh well.

Peace and happiness,
Nan